Back on the Horse
Reemerging from the Mother of Transformations
Hello friends, hello world. This was a hell of a year. Compared to last year, literally, NOTHING is the same in my life. Wait, I still love beach volleyball and dancing. But the way I perceive the world, the way others perceive me, my understanding of what this ME actually is - all this has been shattered and rebuilt.
Now I feel ready to share. I feel ready to share wisdom, experience, and maps of growth but also laughter and joy. Yet, sharing all that is so difficult for me. To share, you need at least two people listening to each other - both need to be truly open to give and receive.
I tried to give what I have to offer quite often and several times I failed miserably. For a while, I was complaining a lot about people not “seeing” me. And apart from a few exceptions they didn’t. But instead of focusing on blaming everyone else, I now understand that I made it very hard to see me. Mostly, because there was still a part of me that didn’t trust the magnitude and size of my being - so if I don’t trust it, how can others?
I trust now. Now I feel ready to share. This new year will be the year of my birth. Thanks for witnessing that.
Hello and great to see your birth into something new.
And great to see your post, as I was thinking about you today and wondering how you are doing.