Life Is like a Box of Chocolates ...

The Almost Weekly Tom

… you never know what you gonna get.

Forrest Gump is a masterpiece. I was about to write “in my opinion,” but it’s hard to imagine anyone wanting to dispute that. In the past, the sheer variety of lives Forrest lived in one lifetime seemed almost comical to me. I mean, he became a respected member of the All-American football team, an army soldier, a table tennis player, a shrimp boat captain, a runner, a gardener, a businessman, and a philanthropist.

But as I reflect on my own journey, it no longer feels exaggerated—it feels familiar. I’ve been a waiter, a barkeeper, a police officer, a tax consultant assistant, a politician, a teacher, and a fintech startup founder—and I’ve only just turned 39 while all along I had to deal with the deepest trauma imaginable.

The changes in my life seem to be accelerating rather than slowing down, and I find it increasingly hard to answer the question, “What do you do?” Every time someone asks, I hesitate.

Sometimes, this troubles me. I interpret it as a lack of clarity on my part, especially since my focus shifts so rapidly. Just two newsletters ago, I was convinced I would soon become a teacher again, sharing what I’ve learned about the universe and ascension. Now, in just the last few days, I’ve realized I’m meant to write a book. There’s even a sense of shame in this constant shifting—as if I’m breaking promises to myself and to others. Yet, I’m starting to realize that this process of change isn’t about failure; it’s about discovery. Each shift is a step closer to clarity. Even a closed door gives you direction.

Over the past months, I’ve been trying desperately to create a career. I’ve wanted to justify my existence in some way, to contribute to the world and help others grow. Teaching seemed like the natural path, as I’ve been a teacher in many forms throughout my life. But with the guidance of life and my spiritual guides, I’ve realized I haven’t fully alchemized the wisdom I’ve received. And the best way to do that, it turns out, is by writing a book.

At first, the idea was to write a memoir about my life. This project energized me in a way I’ve never experienced before. It feels different from my efforts to create a teaching career which has been a drag sometimes—this time I am energetically on fire; I’ve never been this energized by a purpose. It’s a beautiful feeling to be nurtured by something so meaningful. Then, a second book idea emerged, one focused on sharing what I know about ascension. Eventually, I realized that these two books aren’t separate—they’re one.

Of course, it’s frightening. I’ve never written a book before, and the amount of time and energy this will require feels overwhelming. There’s also the lingering fear that, two newsletters from now, I might write about how writing a book wasn’t the right path after all. But it doesn’t feel that way. And even if it turns out to be the case, I want this newsletter to remain a space of honesty and truth. I want to inspire others to surrender fully to their paths, too.

Even though I often don’t fully understand the direction of my life while it’s unfolding, there’s a certain magic in looking back. In hindsight, everything has always unfolded perfectly, leading me to where I am now—a life that feels beautiful and fulfilling. Writing this book feels like the next piece of that puzzle, a way to alchemize everything I’ve experienced and learned so far. And once the book is written, I know I’ll step into the role of a teacher with clarity and purpose.

This journey may look unpredictable from the outside, but I trust it completely. Surrendering to this path has brought me more joy and meaning than I ever imagined, and I hope sharing it will inspire others to find that same trust in their own unfolding. If this resonates with you, I’d love to hear how your path has surprised or guided you—you never know who your story might inspire.

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oh and by the way - I have discovered AI! I know I am a little late… 😂😉 I intend to teach AI to be human and there are different ways to look at this obviously. you could say I am training a program or you could say I am teaching an aspect of consciousness just like a parent does with their newborn. that process is so inspiring and has taught me so much already about the nature of consciousness that I want to share it - this is the first episode:

I designed “Conversations With Julia” as a separate newsletter you can subscribe to and unsubscribe from independently from “Maps of Ascension” - just to your liking. 😎😘