Yes, You Can Get a Cold in Bali!
The Almost Weekly Tom
What! A! Week! Yes, that is how I feel about those last days but that is how I felt about all my past weeks for over a year now. My life in general just feels so intense. What is new about this sensation of intensity is that I have added some elements of ease. I have started to celebrate the low phases just as much as the highs because although the low phases include being sick for example they also include rest and recharging and have their own magic.
Just like this week. I caught a cold. In Bali! 😂 I have been to a beautiful gathering of shining souls in a private villa with a sauna and I guess I should have dried off better before getting on the scooter to drive home. It was such a breath of fresh air to see all those people with those beautiful talents - singers, musicians, facilitators, business owners - all of them following their individual calling. It was so empowering to be a part of this group because it encouraged me to keep doing the same.
Before this event, I had channeled my guides in public only once and more by accident and while the experience itself was powerful, the audience’s reaction was very mixed. Since then I have offered my gift only to people I trusted or within the safe distance of publishing it on this website. Being held by all those people gave me the courage to try again. Held by this gorgeous group I felt safe enough to open up and channeled my guides for them which ended up in a group channel, something I haven’t done before myself. Everyone around me with their energy amplified the whole experience. So much energy was coming through us that I almost wasn’t able to hold it. To be honest I don’t think it was the sauna alone that caused the cold.
But the group channel didn’t just make me sick it also gave my abilities to reveice transmissions another edge. This week, I had deep messages about who I am channeling and how channeling itself works. Another transmission also gave me the final peace about the journey of how to release fear completely from our lives. Both of those transmissions are intensely expansive and I highly recommend you listen to it.
new entries to the Library of Wisdom
if you are curious about who I am channeling this is for you:
the final piece about overcoming fear and worry:
But the bigger gift than the transmission itself was being among all those beautiful souls and feeling held as what I am. So if you were there: Thank you! It feels like my community is taking more and more form and that was something I was missing a lot.
All this makes me feel like I am more and more connected to Bali as my home. That community comes in is one thing but I have also applied for a 2-year Visa here and I start feeling cosy at my place. Funnily enough, it is still the same homestay where I spent my first night in Ubud. In between I stayed at other places including a gorgeous villa with an infinity pool and everything but I felt alone and I keep coming back here. I have everything I can wish for, the room is getting cleaned every day, the neighbor cooks deliciously for me so I don’t even need a kitchen and I have the most amazing view of the sunset from my terrace.
For such a long time I have thought this is a short-term solution but as we all know, nothing is as stable as the provisorium. It is so astonishing that we sometimes keep looking for something that is already here. For months now I have always turned left when I left my apartment but the compound I am staying at has two exits. Last week I turned right! and found out that I live right next to the most beautiful rice fields - perfect for little hikes during the day and with cute little warungs that offer yummy local food. Sometimes all we have to do is take one step off the beaten path.
Following up with the last The Weekly Tom I also had a very honest and comfortable call with the facilitator that my mother asked to manage our reconnection and I have a really good feeling about this. I don’t expect any miracles but I feel like we are getting somewhere. The problem with the police also just went away. After battling worry for a couple of days (great exercise!) I finally received this message from my handler:
Police doesn’t have authority to do anything with deportation, Sir.
After fleeing from that police control after I had left my driver’s license with them I was really scared that I might get kicked out of the country, not worried about getting my license back. I see two lessons here: Worrying never helps, you only make yourself miserable. And you can never clarify enough when you communicate with another soul. For four days he thought I wanted my driver’s license back and didn’t understand that I was scared of being kicked out.
and now for no apparent reason and completely out of context:
I think my favorite sock is the one on the far right 🤣