You Know Nothing, Tom Snow
The Almost Weekly Tom
I have learned so much. I have expanded and grown immensely and still the problems of life feel pretty much the same. Now, I would be amazing at my old job but I don’t wanna do it anymore also because it would greatly harm my frequency and again turn me into what I left behind. I could easily deal with the problems of my old partnerships but I don’t want those partnerships anymore. I would see right through the ego of my past but every step I took along my path of growth, my ego took it with me like a shadow that you cannot lose no matter how fast you run.
I still know nothing. This is another paradox of the path of growth. I will never solve life. No matter where I am at, no matter the depth of my consciousness or the awareness of my heart, the challenges the universe will present me will grow proportionally. The only way out of this paradox is to understand that I am OK just as I am now. There is nothing to solve. Knowing nothing is fine.
This week was a rough one. I disconnected from my sister, the last member of my core family that I had contact with. I thought I was able to consciously connect with a potential life partner and ran right into trauma bonding, faster than ever. I am not entirely sure how to continue with my business. I feel a little disoriented. You might think that maybe it’s not the smartest thing to admit to my confusion here. Some of you might be considering working with me and who wants a confused teacher?
the kirtan/dance at Dragon Tea Temple is one of my favorite events. first singing helps me process emotions …
… and then the dance integrates it and brings me back to joy.
Fortunately, I have had enough confusion in my life already to realize that confusion is the state that precedes wisdom. Confusion happens when everything that you think you understood gets shaken. All your patterns and parts get loosened which is the only way new levels of understanding can appear. In our “normal” state so many beliefs and patterns are ingrained in us like railroad tracks and limit growth so confusion is a gift and will reveal great gifts - if only I give it time and don’t react in fear to it.
you can find more details about this concept and how to use it for growth in your life here:
Most people do the opposite. They feel the confusion coming in and they get scared. Out of fear, they return to old dogmas and beliefs like a child that takes cover under mommy’s skirt because it has hit its toe. That’s a recipe for stagnation. It takes courage to admit your confusion and to sit with it but if you do you have found a catalyst for growth.
Life to me seems to be an endless alternation between figuring things out and trying to figure things out. The only way not to suffer is to accept constant change I guess. As always it was perfect timing that I received a transmission about exactly that topic 10 days ago. I only published it two days ago because I wasn’t in the appropriate state of mind before but when I relistened to it, it almost felt like a prophecy for the last week. If you want to ease into the change of life that is happening constantly you should check it out.
who are we? and if we are, how many?
Several times already, I thought I had solved life. This week is a good reminder not to be arrogant. Maybe this time I remember that there is nothing to solve. Have a great weekend! Be blessed ☘️☘️☘️
