Focus.
The Almost Weekly Tom
I know now that I am ready to give and receive unconditional love with my life partner. While I didn’t have the emotional maturity in the past I have it now. I am prepared. The next time soul mate energy shows up I won’t be the person that crumbles. And at some point, she won’t crumble either.
If you recognize those words then you are a loyal reader of The Weekly Tom since this is the last paragraph of last week’s issue. I have shared that I don’t believe in soul mates but that I believe in soul mate energy that can enter our lives carried by different human beings. I must have done something right, some switch has been flipped because I feel this energy entering my life more and more.
This week I have met soul mate energy again and she might read this so that makes it a bit awkward but I still feel like sharing. This space of semi-public reflection is very dear to me because doing it gave me some valuable insights already and it also feels like a beautiful service to you to let you participate in my processes.
What I can tell you is that she definitely won’t crumble. There is great stability and clarity in her aura which results in communication as clear as a mountain lake. So that already feels very different. And she gave me a real number. I mean that’s a plus. 😂 While writing this I understand that it is more about keeping center this time. As I shared in my post about co-dependency, I used to lose my inner stability once I met someone that I thought would “save” me.
I have not much to do anymore with that person for sure but still, I feel my center becoming a little wobbly, not much but enough to notice it. Now it is my task to use the time before we meet again to return to my rock-solid foundation so that I can meet her from a place of unwavering stability. I think great attraction is created by two beings anchored in their center and their magnetism. If one collapses onto the other it’s just chaos.
I want to keep my focus, too. As I have discovered lately, there is so much more to learn about focus than I thought. In the past, it meant for me to be able to work on the same task for an hour straight or so - if I was able to do that I felt focused. Now I have started to discover that I can have whole days with complete focus! It still happens quite rarely that I can keep up focus for a whole day but it’s just practice like everything else!
As I experience it there is this first layer of focus that allows us to finish a task without getting distracted. That part isn’t a problem for me anymore but then there is a second layer of focus opening up in front of me - let’s call it continuous focus - and I have never had that before.
On the rare days that it had experienced continuous focus, I finished a task and instead of filling the gaps between two tasks with something distracting like Instagram or reading the news I sat down and went into silence. That silence would release what I was supposed to do next like sparkling water releases its bubbles and then I went on to do what appeared. After doing this for a whole day I felt so refreshed and alive! The trick is to keep our focus also while we are relaxing I think. The moment I swap scrolling with mindfulness, my mind can refresh during the pauses and I enter the next activity with so much energy!
Keeping continuous focus is still hard though at least for now and so far I was only able to make it through the day if there wasn’t any outside distraction. In my case, that is pretty easy to do because if I want to, I get breakfast and lunch delivered to my balcony by my neighbors and some days I don’t leave the house before dinner. But even for someone as secluded as I am in the last corner of this Balinese family compound on the top floor of the building, people enter my energy through messages for example, and distract my focus.
I feel that is the next step of my journey: To learn to keep my focus even in a complex business environment for example. But that is for future Tom to take care of. Right now I am just very happy to be in the flow. Among other things, I have redesigned the landing page for the Library of Wisdom and created an audio intro spoken by Bas, one of my guides.
Additionally, I have recorded my first DJ set and put it on Soundcloud, please check it out, I am quite proud of the result. I also played my first ecstatic dance last week at StoneStage - yay! 🥳🥳🥳 Hopefully I can play some more soon - give me a shout if you know a location that needs to dance!
And of course, there are new entries to the Library like almost every week. This week the main theme is friendship - it was very surprising for me how many misconceptions I had about friendship. Maybe you’ll have the same experience, check it out!
new entries to the Library of Wisdom:
Now that I think of it, a lot more has happened: I found Jackie, a very passionate and talented photographer with 12 years of experience and we will have a photoshoot soon - I need some professional pictures. You should check out some of her work on her website if you need a photographer in Bali. While we were scouting Dragonfly Village as a location for the shoot we randomly met the owner and she offered me the shala to give meditation classes. The universe keeps pouring it on me. May I never forget to be grateful.
I’ll close with this. It’s always the same: after sending out The Weekly Tom I have this fear coming up that I won’t have anything to write about next week and in reality, I always have to try hard to keep it to a readable length. 😅
May the universe be as giving to you as it is to me. May you be able to see that it already is. Love and a big hug my cute doves! 🕊️🕊️ See you next week!