DJing Was Fun but I Shouldn't Have Fled from the Police
The Almost Weekly Tom
I have shared personal things before but more by accident and because it was connected to a certain topic I wrote about. I tried sharing on Instagram but to be honest that just doesn’t feel right. Yet, I want to stay connected with all of you! To all the people I have met along my journey; old friends from childhood, encounters while I was traveling, dinner friends from Bali, and the beautiful people who found me online and connecting via a weekly newsletter feels very comfortable. 🙃
This (hopefully 😅) weekly update will also help to streamline things. I have been posting 2-4 pieces a week lately and I have found myself in a conundrum: I don’t want to slow down the information I receive from my guides, that feels weird - but I also don’t want to spam you guys with too many emails, especially if some of you don’t have full access to the paywalled content. From now on The Weekly Tom will not only give you an update about my life - at the end, I will also link all the other content I have posted during the week.
Thinking about his last week, I cannot believe that so many things can happen in only a few days… And the week isn’t even over yet - I am writing this on Thursday. Let’s start with the most joyful and exciting event: I am finally DJing in public!
It happened at a beautiful place with people that I love. It is called Mudra, a stunning location made from bamboo, with beautiful art on the wall, opening up to the jungle in the back and every Sunday afternoon, the community of Ubud gathers here and listens to live music. I am so thankful that the owner let me play and start my career here.
Everyone smiling and having fun - it meant the world to me! But man was I scared and nervous the days before! I had to overcome so much fear to get there and I am really glad I made it… Thanks to everyone dancing!
Overcoming fear seems to be the energetic topic of this week which is not surprising! My main contemplation of the last weeks was about overcoming fear and worry and it has been a common rhythm for me that I first receive the channels, then I write about it and a couple of days or weeks later the universe sends me the lessons to embody that knowledge. So overcoming my fear of making myself public was one of the lessons. Luckily, I didn’t know that the harder lesson was about to follow…
Yesterday, after my drumming circle with Catur (really fun btw!), I offered a friend a ride to the restaurant we wanted to go to and I gave her my helmet. As we were passing a crossing, a police officer suddenly grabbed my arm and told me to stop. I knew immediately that it was about the missing helmet and they usually want to be paid off - so not a big deal. But something snapped and I took off while they were looking the other way. Unfortunately, I gave them my driver’s license before I fled…
Some of you know that I had this incident with a “police control” in Honduras a couple of years ago. It ended with me lying face-down in the mud with a boot in my neck and an M16 to my head. I thought I was over it but I clearly wasn’t and this harmless helmet check triggered me so hard. That I was a police officer myself doesn’t help to process that as much as I thought.
There has been so much stability in my life over the last months and I started to feel almost invincible. It took only 2 minutes to show me all the fears that I still have. Fears about my personal safety, fears about being kicked out (of the country), fears about being alone because there was no one in Bali I wanted to share this with.
It took me a day to stabilize and to process and I am still in the process but there is already a silver lining. So much physically stored fear is leaving my body - it is just astonishing. So much energy is getting released. And as always, those intense portals the universe sends us always release a gift of the same magnitude.
So I believe 100% that it is by design that my mother contacted me on the same day. As some of you know, due to my family history, contact between us is very rare. But she found a counselor to manage our reapprochement. I mean this is a big step she took and I am very grateful although that will be challenging too.
Everything else is opening up as well. Clients keep coming in. My Website is so cool now and my clicks have doubled over the last month! I am really proud of the result of all that hard work over the last week. Please check it out: https://www.mapsofascension.com/
Music keeps drawing me in a lot as well. I am experimenting with the harmonium, the djembe, and my voice and I have another DJ gig next Wednesday at StoneStage, my first ecstatic dance! Yay! So life is just a wild ride but a fun ride.
See you next week :)
this week’s wisdom:
this has been my main effort over the last few days - making all the wisdom pieces accessible in an easy way:
finally, I am stepping into my powers and became brave enough to write down and publish what kind of service I offer:
I also found two major new pieces of information about how manifestation works and managed to put them into writing:
to manifest your full life, prayer is one of the most common and effective ways to synchronize yourself with the universal flow - listen in to learn more:
